[junebaby]

As expected, even though we got back together, we didn't last much longer anyway. School was getting hectic, Mike completed his Specialist training and was posted to a unit as a sergeant.

We met up occasionally for meals and heavy petting, but that was it. No matter how much I wanted him to take my virginity, he couldn't do it. Or maybe he wouldn't.

In school, I wasn't really short on suitors either. Perhaps these older guys really knew how to appreciate busty women. Maybe all they wanted was to get into my pants.

Now don't get me wrong, I was horny as hell, but I wasn't just going to give up my first time to some random person. It had to be special. Mike was special in a way to me, but he was also so reluctant.

When I was in year 2, there was a guy in my project group named Dan. Dan wasn't traditionally good-looking. He was more of the rugged sort of good-looking, with unkempt hair, unshaved face, always dressing down, even for presentations. In short he was a rebel. We could always smell cigarette smoke on him during lectures, but he didn't really care. Most of the time, he was sleeping anyway. He was also kind of aloof, not really talking to anyone unless he needed to.

When he was assigned to my project group because no one else wanted him, the rest of the members were kind of irritated. Me on the other hand, was more intrigued by this bad boy.

As I spent more time with Dan, working on projects, I found myself more and more attracted to his devil-may-care attitude.

School was stressing me out and perhaps it was time I found someone new to work out those frustrations with.

Dan was single, and it appeared he didn't care much for relationships. That seemed perfect for my needs at that time. But I didn't know how to broach the topic with him. I decided to take the chance one night after a project discussion.

Me: Hey Dan.

D: Wassup?

Me: I'm curious about something.

D: What?

Me: You seem really laid back and don't really give a fuck about anything. How are you getting such good grades?

D: I'm really smart.

Me: No seriously.

D: I am. I was from top schools all the way. Never really needed to study much. Things just happen.

Me: Really?

D: Yeah. But that's not what you really want to ask me right?

Me: Eh?

D: What do you really want?

Me: I… errr…

Dan took out a cigarette and lit it. We were still walking towards the dorms but he didn't care.

D: Well?

Me: It's complicated.

D: Uncomplicate it then.

Me: Well… I sort of had a boyfriend but we broke up.

D: What? A pretty girl like you? Dumb guy.

Me: Actually it was me. He doesn't have much time to spend with me.

D: Wait. Let me guess. Must be some childhood sweetheart who's in NS now.

Wow. He was almost a mind reader.

Me: He's not exactly a childhood sweetheart but he's in NS.

D: And you're one of those bitches who dump their boyfriends when they go to NS.

Me: What? No! It was mutual.

D: Yeah. Sure it was. So what is it? You're not getting any sex now? You want some?

Me: Err..

D: Dress a little sexier and the guys will be queuing up.

Me: I'm still a virgin actually.

D: Ah. So you need someone to change that? Dress sexier.

Me: What do you mean?

D: Lower cut tops, tighter tops. The way I see it, your boobs are quite big, but you hide them. Maybe shorter skirts.

He was pretty chauvinistic. But somehow I liked it.

Me: Will you be queuing up?

D: Haha! You wish. I don't need to queue. I just take what I want.

Me: Oh.

D: Are you afraid little girl?

Me: Afraid of?

D: Of me.

Me: Should I be?

He grabbed my hand and I got a shock. He brought his face close to mine. My heart was beating so fast I thought I would jump out of my chest. He let me go.

D: Nah. Just screwing with you. I'm not into the whole boyfriend-girlfriend thing. I got dumped during NS too. You should work things out with him.

Me: Oh.

D: Seriously. Such shit can damage a guy.

Me: How about fuck buddies?

D: Haha! I have two. You're a virgin. Why do I need you?

Me: Argh. You're damn irritating.

D: I know.

Me: I just need some outlet to release.

D: Like what? You never even had sex.

Me: I really really like sucking cocks.

D: That's a surprise. Are you any good?

Me: Never had any complaints so far.

D: I see. Well, you can find me when you're not a virgin. I'll show you what you've been missing.

Now I was getting excited.

Me: How about I show you what you've been missing?

D: Haha! How many cocks have you sucked before?

Me: One.

D: I think I'll pass. Just because one guy never complained doesn't make you any good.

The sex demon took over again.

I grabbed his hand, and literally dragged him to my dorm room.

I locked the door and pushed him onto the bed. Maybe this guy just needed a dominant girl.

Me: Strip.

He shrugged his shoulders and removed his clothes. Under that baggy attire he actually had a pretty toned body. And what a surprise, he was clean shaven down below too.

I stuffed his entire cock into my mouth. It didn't fill me as much as Mike did, but having a cock in my mouth after so long really felt good.

And yes, he came within minutes.

I guess I changed his mind about how good a virgin could be.

I probably surprised Dan with my boldness and skill. He no longer made fun of me being a virgin.

Something told me he didn't really like being used that way. He was probably more used to cumming from sex. But how could he complain when I was sucking him dry within minutes?

I was determined to keep my virginity intact while still getting my fill of cock and right now this arrangement was working for me anyway.

Dan did ask me many times why I didn't want to have sex. But I told him I was waiting for the right person to come along and he accepted that reason. After all, he was getting blown by me on a daily basis, and probably didn't have the energy to have sex.

Despite all that, I was still meeting Mike every now and then, whenever he was available. I don't know why, but we had this special connection and I didn't want to lose that connection with him. At that point of time, it felt that my blowjobs were what was keeping him close to me. I did tell him about my FB, or in this sense, BJB, Dan. Mike wasn't too happy about it but it was my choice anyway. He didn't have much say in the matter.

Anyway, one weekend, my parents had organised a short overseas trip to Malaysia. I declined as I had deadlines to meet. And also, Mike was out that weekend. I was intending on sucking him dry anyway. That was so much better than a lame overseas trip.

I waited for him patiently as he booked out and came over immediately. That was one weird thing about him. He always did as I wanted and there didn't seem to be anything he wanted. I would gladly do whatever he wanted though, as long as it was reasonable to me. But he never really asked.

We had lunch at the coffeeshop nearby my place before going up. I didn't really have anything planned, perhaps we could watch some movies or something since we had the whole house to ourselves.

Mike seemed really tired, after showering, he lay on my bed and promptly fell asleep.

I lay down next to him, lying in his arms. It was a safe and comforting feeling. I didn't get this feeling from anyone else. And yet we just couldn't be a proper couple. It was bothering me slightly, but what I didn't know was that it was actually devastating to Mike.

Anyway, I let him sleep for a short while before I started playing with his sleeping cock.

I got him fully hard with my mouth when he woke up.

M: Stop.

Me: Why?

M: Don't do this.

Me: Why?

I did my usual magic trick with my mouth but he pulled me up roughly.

M: Stop it. Please.

I tried to kiss him, but he pushed me away.

Me: What's wrong?

He rolled over and faced the wall, ignoring me.

I shook him by his shoulder.

Me: Baby?

He turned around and looked at me. I could see the anger in his eyes. Or was it hurt?

He pinned me onto the bed with my hands above my head. With his free hand, he pulled up my t-shirt, covering my eyes. He kissed me roughly. He was never this rough with me before. But I liked it. I felt my juices flowing. This was a new Mike and he was making me very very excited.

He unhooked my bra and attacked my breasts with his mouth, all the while still pinning my hands above my head. I couldn't move and I couldn't see.

I felt his finger on my pussy, he slid one in and I moaned. I was super wet.

Then I felt it. That big, hard thing was at my entrance.

Me: Mike no. Please. I'm not ready.

He ignored me.

With one thrust, his virgin cock broke through my defences. To be honest it wasn't much of a defence given how wet I was. I felt a slight sharp pain for a second. And that was it.

He removed the t-shirt from my face. My eyes were wet and teary.

He kissed me gently. I kissed him back.

He started thrusting slowly. I could feel every inch of his cock in my freshly deflowered pussy. It felt so much better than his fingers. We kissed as he fucked me gently, grabbing my boobs and teasing my nipples.

I was torn. In more ways than one. I wasn't ready, but he took me anyway. Was this rape? But it felt so good and I didn't want him to stop.

I was so close to orgasm. I could sense he was too. We came, almost together.

I felt the spurt of semen hit my cervix. Then three more spurts. He was unloading everything inside me. Even though I was worried about unwanted pregnancy, it felt so damn good.

As he pulled out, his thick creamy semen followed, along with some blood from my torn hymen. I guess this was what they called a strawberry creampie.

He hugged me.

M: You're mine now.

I looked at him, still with tears in my eyes.

Me: All you needed to do was ask.