I am ashamed for unknowingly committing incest

Botakhead · #1 16-02-2012, 08:01 PM

Today I went to work in a happy mood, going to meet with my prospective customer, could be a huge deal and making much more in commission than my monthly basic. We had arranged to meet at one of the more popular shopping mall's restaurant, to discuss business over lunch.

After parking my car at the mall's multi-storey car park, I was walking out into the main shopping floor lobby, checked the area out a little by looking around, looked at my watch, still early before the meet up time. So went window shopping, then out of the corner of my eye, I glanced and saw to my surprise, it was C standing on the corridor outside of the departmental store.
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I've lost contact with her since like 4 years ago, my memories slowly creeping back into me, how we met and worked together, have fun with each other, how I have taken her virginity having sex & threesome with lady boss, how she went missing and suspected she was carrying my child and wants to marry me.....all those good old times.

I proceeded to walk over and wanted to greet her, she was not looking over at my direction, I was taken aback when I saw she was with someone, someone very familiar, very dear and very intimate to me. It was .... how .... why .......
I was stunned, it was F, my longtime FB, my first virgin fuck. I really was thrown off balanced then and there. I swallowed my saliva and gently carrying on walking nearer to them, they had not noticed me yet, then another shock when I heard C called F, mother......I was like .... I should had known better. I gave a slight, huh hmmm, excuse me, they looked in my direction, both of them were like in a trance, like not able to move, with their eyes locked in my face. Then as I walked beside them, I saw tears welling up and flowing down F's cheeks, C was stunned, with her mouth open but no sound came out, then suddenly she ran behind a pillar and started crying out loudly, I don't know what had happened, don't know what to do....., F move forward still crying and hugged me, come to think of it, it was like maybe 5 years ago since our last fuck session, then we lost contact. We hugged like we had finally found each other. I released my embrace with F and asked her what was that all about? She let me wiped her tears away, put on a smile and looked me deeply in my eyes, said they both missed me very much. I know, because I also missed them too, but how come she called her mother, it was all not clear to me, I know C told me F was her friend's sister's friend's daughter.....I should have remembered it correctly, it was no mistake. Then C came back out from behind the pillar and joined the 2 of us, with shaken voice, she greeted me calling me father. I dropped my briefcase, took a step back and almost falling down backwards when my back hit the glass panel of the corridor. I stammered.....what what is going on. We did not pay attention to all those kaypos crowding near the 3 of us. C came forward to help me to steady myself on my feet, picked up my briefcase and led me towards F. C suggested we better go somewhere less crowded and not make a fool of ourselves with so many people looking. The 3 of us held hands and move quickly away and out of the shopping mall. I was still puzzled and wanted to know what was that back there going on? We found a quiet place and sit ourselves down, F started by asking me if I remembered how we met and had sex? I said sure of course I do, I gave you my virginity when I was just 15 years old. F was my secondary school temp teacher (that story should be coming later but now), she was 22 years old then, we were having 1 to 1 after class tuition. It was in one of the science laboratory, I was seated at the front row, she then sat on the Lab table infront of me, I ... am .... not ..... sure .......how to carry on writing now. I think I'll write about her in another part, lets get back to .... we were FB for about 10 years, when I was 25 years old we stopped fucking each other, lost contact after that. She had tears in her eyes again, leaning onto me ( I was seated in between them), held my hand and sobbed and told me that 1 fateful day after we had fucked ourselves silly (about 1 year into our FB relationship), she was pregnant and she had only 1 cock in her, and it's mine. after what she said, I felt like a bomb just exploded infront of me.....what ...why ...I did not know about this, she said she loved me too dearly and not wanting to destroy my future (Ireally had wished she did, because I loved her deeply too). She quietly excused herself from meeting for the period of time when she was expecting (my child). Gave birth to C in Ipoh....I was like fucked out man.... what had I done then and now....I am a ....I don't know what to call myself.... a beast! Yes I was and am a BEAST!!!!
I started to cry, the 3 of us with tears flowing down our faces, holding each together, a family, that's right, a FAMILY. She carryon talking and C carry on crying sobbing on to my shoulder. I wanted to say how sorry I am, what a bastard I had been.....she put her finger to my mouth, don't want me to curse and swear anymore. She said she had already resigned to the fate when she heard C tell her that she had sex with me and her most precious virgin pussy was given to me, (her father).....I said I did not know at that time, if C had told me about you and her, I would not have committed a heinous crime to take my own daughter's virginity. I was crying into my own hands.....I raised my left hand up and "piak", followed buy my right hand another "piak". I slapped myself....the 2 of them, mother and daughter, held my hands and to stop me from doing that, C told my that mother ask that we forgive you for doing it to me, as I was doing it unknowingly, C had already knew I was her biological father, but still she went ahead and had sex with me (her father), it was all because she did not have a father when she was growing up, so when the opportunity came, she lost her senses and was happy to be with me. I had to call the office to apply for urgent leave and also called the customer to apologise for not able to meet with them. We quickly left and I drove them back to their home, actually they are staying just the next town to me. When we reached their house, I was greeted by a very homely house, pink and yellow decorations .... like a small girls fantasy. Then another blow hit me, C also had given birth to my child ....I really was damned.....but how....Ctold me that after we went to the private hospital to check for confimation of her pregnancy, the test results was positive. She bluffed me all along. Now this baby (grandchild) is going to have a hard time coping with the truth if it was made known. I am really ashamed for the mess I've created, because of me F had to give up teaching, went back hometown, gave birth to C, start her own hair salon, bring up C single handedly, being a mother and father at the same time. I really felt lousy, what even if I can have sex everywhere, but now it's so shameful, I let them both down....I knelt down in front of F, ask her to hit me for I was not to be forgiven to have committed such unfaithful, unhuman, unfeeling, un.......I really don't know what else to do..... both mother and daughter also went onto their knees, and we cried and hugged tightly together.

Botakhead · #2 16-02-2012, 08:11 PM

I did not see this coming.. really, never expect this to happen. I am confused, angry and could not forgive myself.....how am I going to face this world, my own family with my beloved wife, my 4 children, no.... no....no.....my 2 beloved wives, my 5 lovely children (C is my daughter, so is her baby too) that's 6 lovely children.....how .....how.....am I going to handle this situation???????
I really don't know, I'll have to think ......may be I should have ended my life. . . . . but what will become of all of them, 2 widower, and 6 fatherless children????? NO NO NO way....I'm just being a coward to end my life.....I have to get up and stand on my 2 feet, face the world bravely, YES that's what I'll have to do, be a real man, shoulder all the responsibilty, be a good husband to 2 beloved wives, loving father to my 6 children. YES that'll be the correct way out.

But how to tell all of them my decision? That'll be another challenge for me.......

Botakhead · #3 16-02-2012, 08:26 PM

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Originally Posted by DeusExMJ

...Oh God. Stay strong! What hath been done can't be undone, so just live with it and make the best out of it!

I'm glad you did not throw profanities at me,just the opposite with your encouragement too. Thank you.

varfier · #4 16-02-2012, 08:32 PM

really scratching my head what can a man do with this situation?
Be positive.

kid_26 · #5 16-02-2012, 08:34 PM

Bro, u have to think rationally in this situation. Suicide is not the only way out. Since F is staying in other country, u can always send them some money and visit once a while. They are also your family.

However, I leave it to you whether you wanna tell your current wife about this situation since it may not end up well. If the outcome is unexpected, you have to weigh and choose wisely.

Just my 2 cents

Botakhead · #6 16-02-2012, 08:38 PM

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Originally Posted by varfier

really scratching my head what can a man do with this situation?
Be positive.

Thank you for your support.

Quote:

Originally Posted by kid_26

Bro, u have to think rationally in this situation. Suicide is not the only way out. Since F is staying in other country, u can always send them some money and visit once a while. They are also your family.

However, I leave it to you whether you wanna tell your current wife about this situation since it may not end up well. If the outcome is unexpected, you have to weigh and choose wisely.

Just my 2 cents

Now F is staying in Singapore , she opened her hair salon in Singapore, C was also educated in Singapore, both are PR.
I know it'll be difficult, how to bring up this matter.... but I'll definitely have to try and 'sorry' is not in my mind.

sulphur · #7 16-02-2012, 08:49 PM

Hi botakhead, relax and dont do anything first. These kind of situations require some thoughts before any actions are done. May I try to give some suggestions :

1) Your current family is ignorant of everything, if possible, do not say anything first.

2) F and C looks like they are able to forgive you. Take the chance to treat them the best within your reasonable means. That is the only way to compensate, nothing else makes them feel better.

3) I would suggest C's child not know that you are the father. It will be a killing blow to the child's future.

It will take a lot of time to stabilise this. Be strong, don't self remorse so much. It is just pure unlucky that this happened. Take the basket and keep moving. That is the only way in my opinion.

Iemanishere · #8 16-02-2012, 08:50 PM

Bro, u did not know abt it.. The only thing u can do now is to treat them well.. Be a man..., man upstairs will understand..

Botakhead · #9 16-02-2012, 09:01 PM

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Originally Posted by sulphur

Hi botakhead, relax and dont do anything first. These kind of situations require some thoughts before any actions are done. May I try to give some suggestions :

1) Your current family is ignorant of everything, if possible, do not say anything first.
I actually thought of that ,thanks.
2) F and C looks like they are able to forgive you. Take the chance to treat them the best within your reasonable means. That is the only way to compensate, nothing else makes them feel better.
They actually already did forgave me, even before we met. They were so glad that we were fated to meet today.
3) I would suggest C's child not know that you are the father. It will be a killing blow to the child's future.
That is what I'm worried about, whether to send the baby for checkup, child born from incest, same blood....confused now.

It will take a lot of time to stabilise this. Be strong, don't self remorse so much. It is just pure unlucky that this happened. Take the basket and keep moving. That is the only way in my opinion.

Thank you for your encouragement.